Through this Week

So I have been wanting to write for a few days now, but could not for the life of me come up with a clear concise line of thoughts.

I finally just had a thought tonight as I sit here alone in our house. I can live alone if I have to do it. I can, but I wouldn't want to. I don't like feeling isolated. I don't like being alone. I guess this is a subtle hint from God to tell me that I do have someone out there who will complete me. I won't have to ever live in an empty house.

It is really so refreshing to feel that from God. I have been looking for something from God during these really rough past few weeks. It's not really a definitive answer to everything happening now, but then again it is. I have been asking all these questions and I guess He is telling me to sit back and let Him handle it all. I thought I was, but I guess I really wasn't.

I am so frustrated though. I don't wish the events of the last seven months on anyone, but it is hard. And my family has been through so much in life already. And we keep pushing forward to better ourselves and our situation, and the doors aren't just shut. They are slammed in our faces. Or left far enough open for us to see, but not get through. It is rough.

I am just ready for something positive to start happening. I am hoping that some of these things turn around... I really do. I am praying for some positive things to start happen. I guess I just am a hopeful person. Sometimes.... I wonder if I am too hopeful. But my faith is in God, and it rests in the fact that my Father will take care of me!

Thank You God for this little message for me. Thank you for this message of hope while I feel like everything else is falling apart.

A Lot of People

I guess this is one of those days when I have to tell myself this. I think that a few of my people should make this their mantra considering the things I am supporting them through. It is difficult to be there for someone else when you are trying to make yourself feel worthy. But I know that I have worth because I am still here. These beautiful women who are doubting themselves have worth far beyond what they know. They have no clue how they help me! I love to see the strength in them. I am excited to help them celebrate their victories. I am excited to help them reach victories when I can because they have helped me do the same.

And can I just tell you... My niece is smarter and getting even more intelligent by the day. I am so shocked at the things she can do. She can do 1+1, 2+2,... 10+10, 20+20, etc up to 50+50. It is beautiful. She has a little sass too. Her favorite words are "Whatever!" and "No" even when she says it in rhythm or when she says it in different notes. It is precious! She is so sassy and prissy! Her smiles are precious and her words are even more beautiful! She communicates with us more and more. Some children with her condition do not communicate verbally. But she sings. Boy, does she sing! Wanna hear? Click here!!!

So... remember what Molly Mahar says. And remember the little things in this world. And love the beauty in this world! BE beautiful! Be humble! Be you! YOU SPARKLE!!!