Candid

I guess I am just gonna be really candid this post. I have been into my music lately, and it hit me when listening to Want You Back by Cher Lloyd that I definitely don't want him back. I don't want anything to do with him at all. I think during the early part of this year, I might have given him a chance at coming back into my life. But now I have experienced some new things in my life. I just did not see how much my life would change in less than a year.

I realize that honestly, he would NOT have stayed through the events of December. He would have run and I would have been hurt even more then. He was not strong enough for the person I am becoming. He is not the type of person that would spend the rest of his life with me because he got too impatient too easily. And he was not willing to work for more in life. I don't want someone who is not going to push for better for themselves. I am doing that constantly in my life. I expect the person I spend the rest of my life with to do the same for themselves. I want to be making my life better for myself and every other person that is in it!

I do not want to say I have high standards now, but I have deal breakers. There are certain things that have to be true of the person I am spending the rest of my life with. I have these things that have happened to me in the last year to make me realize that this person will have to love me for me and now who they want me to be. They are going to have to see me for who I am in the moment, but also be prepared for where I am heading in life. God has big goals for my life otherwise I would not be here. He has to be ready for those things and has to be ready for the things in his own life.

Those who know me, know I have a passion and zeal for everything in life. I have to have that in common with the person I plan to spend the REST OF MY LIFE with! I have to have someone who will go on random car rides through the country on a Sunday afternoon. I have to have someone who will go to the pool on a Tuesday night just because we can and want to. I want that person that is going to kidnap me at four in the morning for breakfast at Waffle House and watch sunrise. I want a spontaneous person that will have the ambition that I do. If the person doesn't, it will never work because I will either be dragged down or flying too far ahead and neither of us will be happy. This is why I have these deal breakers.

A Lot of People

I guess this is one of those days when I have to tell myself this. I think that a few of my people should make this their mantra considering the things I am supporting them through. It is difficult to be there for someone else when you are trying to make yourself feel worthy. But I know that I have worth because I am still here. These beautiful women who are doubting themselves have worth far beyond what they know. They have no clue how they help me! I love to see the strength in them. I am excited to help them celebrate their victories. I am excited to help them reach victories when I can because they have helped me do the same.

And can I just tell you... My niece is smarter and getting even more intelligent by the day. I am so shocked at the things she can do. She can do 1+1, 2+2,... 10+10, 20+20, etc up to 50+50. It is beautiful. She has a little sass too. Her favorite words are "Whatever!" and "No" even when she says it in rhythm or when she says it in different notes. It is precious! She is so sassy and prissy! Her smiles are precious and her words are even more beautiful! She communicates with us more and more. Some children with her condition do not communicate verbally. But she sings. Boy, does she sing! Wanna hear? Click here!!!

So... remember what Molly Mahar says. And remember the little things in this world. And love the beauty in this world! BE beautiful! Be humble! Be you! YOU SPARKLE!!!