REALITY CHECK

I kind of needed the reality check I got recently. God gave me a reality check and sort of put me in my place. I needed it. I wasn't listening for Him. I wasn't listening for my Father to tell me things were time. I took control of stuff in my life. I wish i would have listened before because I would not have been forced to ride the roller coaster that I put myself on these last fw weeks. I have been trying to be the person on top of everything and I was tring to be the person that kept up with everything all on my own. Except, I forgot... I kind of can't do anything all by myself.
During the month oF February, I kind of tried to take the reigns because I was so busy trying to do me and I kept saying that too, but I shouldn't be doing me. I need to be doing God. God is the reason I am here after all! If I did not have Him, I would not be at this place in my life wheere I am choosing the classes for my sophomore year of college. I would not have the oppotrtunity that I get on a weekly basis to worship with these amazing students at Wesley Foundation.
These students are really amazing because they just freely worship Him. I am so blessed to be influenced by them and the worship they provide. I do feel like this is the place in which I will prosper and blossom! I feel like God is moving here. I know He is. I know He is working miracles in this place because He is doing it in me. I go in there and His Word and Spirit reach me. His light shines through Wesley and I am so blesssed to be a part of that.I find these amazing girls here who just amaze me. They are all so amazing. These girls have something else about them. God brings us all here to Wesleyan for this amazing purpose. There is intelligence, beauty, talent, and kindness. There is all that and so much more. I cannot express the blessings I have recieved here.So God, thank You for the reality check. Thank You for putting me in my place. Thank you, whoever is reading this.This is the configuration of a golden heart!

Well, my first.

I suppose it is almost instinctive that my blogging would start with this new era of a life. I have changed my life around from who I was less than a year ago. I am a first year college student, with a blossoming relationship, and amazing friends. I cannot believe how far I have come.
School is awesome. College has become my entire life, but I have no issues with that. I am happy and excited here. I am enthralled by all that is the Wesleyan sisterhood. I have met people I know I will never forget. I have met people here who showed me their true colors. I just cannot think of another college I would rather attend though.
This relationship however new it is, I have my past with him. We have an ugly past because of my insecurities. I wish I could say it was not my fault, but it was. But, we're going to try and make this work again. I think we can. I am older, more maure, more me. I am excited. He has made me smile more in the past week, than others have been able to in months. It is awesome. I cannot describe the feelings that seem to overwhelm my being.He knows me still. He knows those little words that make me blush. He knows those little words that make me smile. He is mine and I am his. He doesn't let me forget it... :)
MY FRIENDS are perfect. I have met amazing women here. I have met strong, beautiful, and fabulous women here who just make my life awesome. I have learned more about myself through them. I have learned more about people through them. I have learned how to not just automatically trust people because I have the instinctive want to just trust everyone and at the same time trust no one. I know it is complicated, but it is me.
And that is the Configuration of a Golden Heart.